We have to put our dog down today

[petergabrielfan]

Thanks again everyone. I had a little rough spot this morning. The alarm went off at 6am, and I rolled over and told my husband that he could go ahead and get in the shower, and I'd let the dog out, so he didn't have to rush. Of course, I started to cry right away. It's going to take some time.

I do the same thing, XUfan. My bedtime routine was to read the paper and unwind in the living room, then go up to bed. Stan would sleep on his bed next to the couch. I'd have to say "C'mon Stan" because he would lie on his bed and not move till I had my hand on the door to go up to bed. Ever single night I catch myself wanting to say it as I go upstairs, and a couple nights ago I even said it out loud without realizing what I was saying. It's hard to look over at a box of ashes on the mantel and no dog bed on the floor. :sad:

My dog had lymphoma before he died, and on one hand it's a relief to not worry about chemo and worrying about his health every two seconds. Yet, I also feel guilty for feeling that relief, if that makes sense. Part of the reason I started couponing heavily is so that we'd have the extra money to spend on his vet bills.

[Moma]

Also...I don't know how many of you have been around huskies. But Soxx was a mixture of Lab and Husky. Huskies have a very high-pitched whine that they resort to when they want something (inside if they're out...outside if they're in...whatever). Now that spring is here, I'm hearing all of the birds that are singing and chatting in my backyard. One of them (I have no idea which one!) makes that same high-pitched sound! And every time I hear it, I start toward the door to see if he wants in. It's just a reflex! I hope the bird moves to another yard soon!

I so know what you mean. For me (and I know that this sounds a bit strange...but...) for many weeks after my boys passed on I would see flashes of black from the corners of my eyes. (Both my kitty boys were black) I would even feel them jump on the bed or couch. My sweet hubby just tells me it is their spirits letting me know that they are both ok.