What would you do?

[a_tyson8]

I wish that I could just say that I am going to get over it today, but it's just not that easy. I can make progress today, and think about all the ways that we just weren't right for each other, but I can't make those feelings go away. It takes a long time to fall in love, and it's going to take a long time for me to fall out of it. He told me that had those feelings for about 6 months before he really realized what had happened. I wish it had been that easy for me.

[Smee]

I think it's ok to feel sad and to grieve. We grieve all sorts of losses including the loss of relationships. I think the trick is to figure how how to keep the grief and sadness from consuming you. As trite as it sounds and as much as I am annoyed at hearing this when the shoe is on my own foot, time really is the best healer of hearts, at least for me. Maybe I'm just weird or I may be just plain wrong, but I've never been able to will myself happy or to "just get over it" when my heart hurts. I just have to go through the process of grieving, keep on keepin' on, and let it play out. I can't control my heart, but I can control how I let unhappiness affect me, and I think you can, too. Be sad, grieve, but keep moving and keep living and keep kicking for the surface.

[a_tyson8]

I think it's ok to feel sad and to grieve. We grieve all sorts of losses including the loss of relationships. I think the trick is to figure how how to keep the grief and sadness from consuming you. As trite as it sounds and as much as I am annoyed at hearing this when the shoe is on my own foot, time really is the best healer of hearts, at least for me. Maybe I'm just weird or I may be just plain wrong, but I've never been able to will myself happy or to "just get over it" when my heart hurts. I just have to go through the process of grieving, keep on keepin' on, and let it play out. I can't control my heart, but I can control how I let unhappiness affect me, and I think you can, too. Be sad, grieve, but keep moving and keep living and keep kicking for the surface.

I think that this is exactly how it is going to be for me. Time is the only fix here, unfortunately. Oh, how I wish I could just will myself to be happy! Life would be so much easier.

I'm still going to all my classes and studying for my finals next week. Then I'll go home and have another hurdle to jump trying to deal with the holidays (we were always very involved with each other's families, and it will be painfully obvious when he is not there). Once school starts up again I am making it my number one priority to get a job. It will be a good time filler, and a little extra money won't hurt.

I try not to think too far ahead because it gets overwhelming and I start to panic. I do not like change, obviously, and this is a big one. Just trying to take it one day at a time at this point.