Tracking my weight...and some goals

Today is a good day to start this blog. I had an appointment with my Doctor this AM and we discussed some goal and options.

A little run down... I need to gain weight. Dr wants to see about 20 lbs. I have never ever been able to keep weight on (unless I was prego). No one knows why. Every test in the book seems to have been run. Everything is normal. I am overall a healthy 24 year old.

But, I currently weigh 105 lbs. It is starting to make me tired and I am sick of the comments from people. I have tried high calorie diets, working out, medication, nothing really does it. So we are starting over.

Dr decided that I am going to see a new dietician. Plan meals with fatty protiens and intake over 3000 calories a day. SIGH. He forwarned me that I may be sick to start with, but my body will adjust.

This actually scares me a bit. What is this going to do to my heart, and arteries? CLOG CLOG CLOG

I know a lot of people don't understand that it is not always easy to be super thin. Sure, it has it's advantages. I can buy clothes in the girls dept at stores (cheaper), can usually find what I want to wear, and I do get hit on almost everyday by someone.

But here are the disadvantages
-EVERYONE thinks I MUST have an eating disorder (not)
-People ask where I got my breasts done (and they are real. 34 D) i guess it looks unnatural On my frame (5'6")
-no tush
-my legs look like chiken legs
-after 3 kids, i have strech marks on my belly. I can't have a tummy tuck to get rid of them because I don;t have enough tissue to put me back together. This means a lot to my self esteem.
-If I was to get sick, I have no extra weight to burn off. I have had to have 2 major surgeries in the last 4 years, and had to be closely monitored not to slip under 95 lbs. It can weaken my heart.

I go back to the doctor in 3 weeks for my next weigh in. Target weight is going to be 108. Keeping my fingers crossed!